心之憾（小小說(shuō)）
文/黃清寶
一
下午上班的時(shí)候，云好幾次站到窗前，看外面的天。云的病房在八樓，遠(yuǎn)遠(yuǎn)的只看見(jiàn)五顏六色的傘慢悠悠地飄來(lái)飄去。地上依然濕漉漉的，泛看白光。云不由得輕嘆一聲;這雨，怎么下個(gè)不停?
云的丈夫出差半個(gè)月，今晚就要回家。丈夫離家的日子，云一人帶著兒子，每天象上緊了發(fā)條的機(jī)器人一般忙個(gè)不停，這才感到這些年來(lái)丈夫任勞任怨，操持家務(wù)是多么不容易。在外人眼里，云精明能干，是個(gè)好護(hù)士長(zhǎng)，云卻明白在家里，自己遠(yuǎn)不是個(gè)賢妻良母。云于是決定今天一定準(zhǔn)時(shí)下班，回家做幾只丈夫愛(ài)吃的菜，也好讓這些天來(lái)吃厭了泡飯，快餐面的兒子高興高興。
二
臨下班的時(shí)候，病房里來(lái)了個(gè)新病員，因車禍造成腦部外傷。病人神志不清，極度煩躁，病情十分危急。中班的護(hù)士是個(gè)新手，見(jiàn)此情景有些慌亂。云不假思索一頭扎進(jìn)了搶救病房……
時(shí)間一分一秒地過(guò)去。更衣，補(bǔ)液，吸痰，導(dǎo)尿，抽血化驗(yàn)……經(jīng)過(guò)一系列緊張的搶救治療，病人的病情漸趨平穩(wěn)，云才松了一口氣。病人家屬端來(lái)一盆熱水，云親手為病人擦凈滿頭滿臉的血污。又向值班護(hù)士細(xì)細(xì)交待一番，云才放心地離開(kāi)病房。
外面，早已是萬(wàn)家燈火。
三
一頭撞進(jìn)夜色中，冰涼的雨灑在頭上臉上，云才發(fā)現(xiàn)自己又忘了帶傘，也才想起自己本來(lái)要為丈夫和兒子弄幾個(gè)菜的。使勁地晃了幾下腦袋心里說(shuō):罷罷罷，本來(lái)就不是個(gè)好主婦!
云遙遙望見(jiàn)自己家窗口的燈光，仿佛看見(jiàn)燈下丈夫和兒子枯坐的身影，心里便充滿了歉疚。數(shù)不清有多少次的遲歸，丈夫在等待中把涼了的菜，熱了一遍又一遍;兒子坐在飯桌前，在一連串的希望和失望之后，昏昏欲睡……每次這種時(shí)候，云的鼻子就酸酸的，好想流淚。
四
云剛爬上四樓，就聽(tīng)見(jiàn)兒子開(kāi)門的聲音，抬頭看去，見(jiàn)高高大大的丈夫和瘦瘦小小的兒子一并擠在門口。
“媽媽，快點(diǎn)!我都快餓昏了?！?/p>
兒子搶過(guò)云手里的包，一邊喊一邊往房間里跑。丈夫卻遞過(guò)來(lái)一條毛巾:
“瞧你，滿臉的水，擦擦!”
越過(guò)丈夫的肩頭，云看見(jiàn)餐桌上滿桌的菜還冒著熱氣。抬眼望向丈夫，想說(shuō)點(diǎn)什么，丈夫的眼神充滿愛(ài)意，云真的哭了。
2026/1/5
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黃清寶，1939年出生，中共黨員，籍貫江蘇江陰市。現(xiàn)居上海市?！吨袊?guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)》會(huì)員檔案庫(kù)認(rèn)證委員，《中國(guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)》認(rèn)證詩(shī)人、簽約詩(shī)人，《一枝紅蓮文學(xué)詩(shī)社》簽約作家詩(shī)人，《世界作家瀾韻府詩(shī)社》簽約作家詩(shī)人，《中國(guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)》主編。曾創(chuàng)作散文、小說(shuō)及詩(shī)詞千余篇，發(fā)表于《中國(guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)》等網(wǎng)絡(luò)平臺(tái)及報(bào)刊。榮獲首屆《鳳雛生》國(guó)際詩(shī)歌大賽優(yōu)秀獎(jiǎng)，五大院士簽約詩(shī)人卓越文學(xué)獎(jiǎng)，《金詩(shī)星光杯》實(shí)力文學(xué)獎(jiǎng)，以及《中國(guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)》主編卓越獎(jiǎng)，世界詩(shī)歌作協(xié).中國(guó)詩(shī)人作文學(xué)領(lǐng)軍人物最高榮譽(yù)獎(jiǎng)?，F(xiàn)為中國(guó)詩(shī)人作家網(wǎng)執(zhí)行總編。
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Huang Qingbao, born in 1939, is a member of the Communist Party of China. His native place is Jiangyin City, Jiangsu Province, and he now resides in Shanghai City. He is a certification committee member of the Member Archive Database of the Chinese Poets and Writers Network, a certified poet and contracted poet of the Chinese Poets and Writers Network, a contracted writer and poet of the Red Lotus Literary Poetry Society, a contracted writer and poet of the World Writers' Lanyunfu Poetry Society, and the chief editor of the Chinese Poets and Writers Network. He has created more than a thousand pieces of prose, novels, and poems, which have been published on online platforms and newspapers and periodicals such as the Chinese Poets and Writers Network. He has won the Excellence Award of the First Feng Chusheng International Poetry Competition, the Outstanding Literature Award for Poets Contracted by the Five Academicians, the Strength Literature Award of the Golden Poetry Starlight Cup, the Chief Editor's Excellence Award of the Chinese Poets and Writers Network, and the Highest Honor Award for Leading Figures in Literature by the World Poetry Association · Chinese Poets and Writers. Currently, he is the executive chief editor of the Chinese Poets and Writers Network.
